The Name of the Game: Sacrifice!

You know, I never thought I'd be able to have a child. Don't ask why, I guess it was just one of those feelings that resonate deep in your gut. You know the feeling.....Needless to say, I hoped and prayed that I'd be a mama one day and more importantly give hubby a son.

Well, BAM! Six months after we get married, I find out that I'm pregnant. Of course this didn't stop me from worrying but I tried to let go and let God. So appointment after appointment little one hung in there and my fears slowly disappear.

Naturally after I became confident that enough that baby was going to be fine I went shopping! And did even more shopping once I found out that little one was a BOY! :) Yup, Hubby got what he wanted and of course was over the moon.

Everything was going well until Feb. 4th when I got put on bed rest. Now, I won't go into details, but I just knew that this was nothing serious and that I'd be up and running again in no time. HA! What's the saying..."when you make plans God laughs"...or something like that. Anyway fast forward 14 days and a minor procedure and my doctor informs me that I'll be on bed rest until my little one comes.

Honestly, I'm okay. I've been working from home and hopefully I can continue to do so. Now I could sit here and be salty about not being able to clean up around the house, cook for myself, come and go whenever I please, set up the nursery, etc. But why dwell on the negative? The most important thing in life to me right now is my child. So whatever I have to do to get him here safe then best believe I'll do it! It's called sacrifice and I guess I better start getting used to it.

Do I wish I had a run-of-the-mill pregnancy...SURE! But it just wasn't the hand I was dealt. Hubby said it best...When encountering adversity face it head on, don't run from it but persevere through it. Faith is developed during the process of such endurance and that belief can serve as a catalyst for you overcoming your trials and tribulations. Don't skip the process because in the PROCESS there is POWER. Yup gotta love a man of God. I know that once this is all said and done it'll be worth it. And quite frankly, this has not discouraged me from having more children. At least in the future I know what I'll be dealing with and hopefully there won't be anymore surprises.

So, if you wanna pay me a visit...I'll be home! LOL..til next time :)

The Name of the Game: Sacrifice!

So I'm giving you all fair warning most of my blogs from henceforth will be about me and my little one. Sorry but these days that's all that's on my mind.

You know, I never thought I'd be able to have a child. Don't ask why, I guess it was just one of those feelings that resonate deep in your gut. You know the feeling.....Needless to say, I hoped and prayed that I'd be a mama one day and more importantly give hubby a son.

Well, BAM! Six months after we get married, I find out that I'm pregnant. Of course this didn't stop me from worrying but I tried to let go and let God. So appointment after appointment little one hung in there and my fears slowly disappear.

Naturally after I became confident that enough that baby was going to be fine I went shopping! And did even more shopping once I found out that little one was a BOY! :) Yup, Hubby got what he wanted and of course was over the moon.

Everything was going well until Feb. 4th when I got put on bed rest. Now, I won't go into details, but I just knew that this was nothing serious and that I'd be up and running again in no time. HA! What's the saying..."when you make plans God laughs"...or something like that. Anyway fast forward 14 days and a minor procedure and my doctor informs me that I'll be on bed rest until my little one comes.

Honestly, I'm okay. I've been working from home and hopefully I can continue to do so. Now I could sit here and be salty about not being able to clean up around the house, cook for myself, come and go whenever I please, set up the nursery, etc. But why dwell on the negative? The most important thing in life to me right now is my child. So whatever I have to do to get him here safe then best believe I'll do it! It's called sacrifice and I guess I better start getting used to it.

Do I wish I had a run-of-the-mill pregnancy...SURE! But it just wasn't the hand I was dealt. Hubby said it best...When encountering adversity face it head on, don't run from it but persevere through it. Faith is developed during the process of such endurance and that belief can serve as a catalyst for you overcoming your trials and tribulations. Don't skip the process because in the PROCESS there is POWER. Yup gotta love a man of God. I know that once this is all said and done it'll be worth it. And quite frankly, this has not discouraged me from having more children. At least in the future I know what I'll be dealing with and hopefully there won't be anymore surprises.

So, if you wanna pay me a visit...I'll be home! LOL..til next time :)

Out with the Old and Into the New

Hey folks! So I hate to be a Debbie Downer or Negative Nelly today in my blog post but I need to vent. Feel free to click the 'x' and move on...trust me I won't be offended.

So I'm starting to realize some relationships that I held in a high regard are crumbling from the foundation. When this happens it really makes you wonder what was it built on in the first place and why you invested so much time and energy into the relationship. I mean it could be my emotionally charged pregnancy hormones, but I feel some type of way! GRRR!

I mean for real for real, I feel as though a lot of my relationships are not reciprocal. There's no give and take on both ends. I find that I'm the one giving and these "friends" are just taking. Well you know what in 2011, I just can't do it no more! I'm truly starting to see things differently and for most folks in my life its not a good look. Some have already been cut off and believe me more cuts are on the way.

Okay moving on...I still hate my job! Ugh! Though I have some hopeful prospects on the horizon so I'm hoping that in the next couple of weeks I'll hear those magically two words YOU'RE HIRED! I definitely need a change because I'm going crazy here!

Okay moving on again....as I go further into my pregnancy journey I'm starting to realize that things that seemed so important prior to preggo-ness are just not anymore. I won't give specific examples, but let's just say I plan on lightening my load very soon. I'm about to take on a huge responsibility and probably the most important one I'll ever have...raising a child. So sorry stuff I used to think was important. You'll be taking a back seat to my little one. HE needs me way more than you do.

Okay I'm done being Suzy Sourpuss....at least for now! :)

Til next time bloggers!

A Farewell Letter to 2010

Dear Two Thousand and Ten:

It was truly a pleasure to be able to see your coming and I pray I see your exit and the birth of a new year. I don't take any day that I continue to be on this Earth lightly for it is truly a blessing and a miracle to be able to see each day and a honor to live another year.

You my dear friend are a year I will never forget. I married the love of my life and watched him turn the big 3-0, I lost a very close family member, opened up a new chapter with another family member, let go of some baggage, came to some realizations about myself and my character and finally, I was blessed with the gift of life.

So you see, though you will be gone in a couple of days, the things I've learned and experienced during your tenure, I will carry with me always. Yes, we've had our ups and downs, but such is life.

I can truly say without a doubt that I'm happy to have experienced every moment of 2010. So thanks!

Oh and if you run into 2005, tell him that it is only now that I can say THANK YOU! Because of him I wouldn't be where I am now.

Anyway, take care and be blessed.

Your Friend,

Tam

My Journey Ended

So back in August (yes I dumb late) I cut all my locks out. *Waiting for initial shock to be over....* Great! Of course most folks' first question was "why?" I'm sorry am I not allowed to cut my own hair?! LOL...yes I must admit the constant stream of "why's" started to annoy me (yes I'm easily annoyed...sue me!) But after a while I realized that maybe folks wanted to see if there was more to the story...was I going through something, etc.

Well honestly, I just wanted a change. I've been natural for 5 almost 6 years and lock'd for 4 almost 5 years. I colored, layered and even cut my locks shorter and I just wasn't satisfied. I guess I wanted a new me to go along with my new married life.

Of course now I look back at photos and wonder to myself...what was I thinking!?! I stare in the mirror each day thinking to myself, what in the world am I going to do with my bushy, dry hair?! Now, I'm not gonna lie, I have considered going back to the creamy crack (i.e, relaxer) *Pausing again for the shock....* and we're back.

See the only reason I locked my hair in the first place was because 6 years ago there weren't a lot of places you could go and get your hair done unless you wanted to slap a relaxer in it. So I figured if I wanted to stay natural that locks was the best decision. Now, in 2010 there are so many natural salons that I have a hard time choosing where I should go! LOL. The problem now is, well....its a recession and I'm cheap! I can't afford to spend (nor do I want to) money every two weeks to get my hair straightened or done. I just can't and won't.

So, I feel like I'm just stuck! In the next couple of days I plan to get braids, but this is just a temporary solution to the problem. I guess I could always go back to having Sisterlocks, you know start the whole journey again. But that is a huge up front cost, not to mention I just don't want to do my own hair anymore....been there done that and I'm over it.

Now, I know what you must be thinking...put up or shut up! I know, but again, the question remains to be natural or to be relaxed? Will I be a traitor to my natural brothers and sisters if I go back to the creamy crack?!?

*Sigh*....stay tuned :)

A Reminder To: Calm Down, Shut Up And Quit Trippin!

Ello there! I received an email today and I wanted to share with all of my followers and lurkers :) Honestly, it reminded me once again that God is faithful and any promise HE makes is like a check you can take to the bank and deposit at any time! No need to worry that that joint will bounce! LOL.

Psalm 46:10 "Be still and know that I am God."


So many times we make situations more than they are
due to our anxiety,



CALM DOWN ! God has your life under control; He knows
how to handle even the seemingly complex situation
with ease.

SHUT UP ! Stop having pity parties and talking about
your business all the time; don't you know that the
power of death and life is in the tongue! Stop
speaking negative things into existence in your life
and in others.

QUIT TRIPPIN' ! When you look at your situations
through your eyes, you often read more into the
situation than what is there. It's not as bad as you
think particularly if God is in your life; Stop over
analyzing your life.



Be courageous
2 Timothy 1:7 - "For God hath not given us the spirit
of fear; but of power, and of Love, and of a sound
mind.
Fear is not of God. Have the courage to step out on
faith and do the seemingly impossible. Start your own
business; go into the ministry; apply for that
promotion; anything that you've been afraid to do and
you know that God has called you to do - JUST DO IT!




Have confidence
Philippians 4:13 - "I can do all things through Christ
which strengthens me."
Remember, greater is He that's within you than he
that's in the world. You have the power of the most
High God working in you, and you have His Son steadily
making intercession for you. You have nothing to worry
about! Walk with your head up! You say you have low
self-esteem; somebody told you that you'd never amount
to anything; the devil is a liar! Know that you are
somebody not because Jesus said it, but because you
are a child of The King!



Walk in the VICTORY !
Romans 8:28 - "And we know that all things work
together for good to them that love God, to them who
are the called according to His purpose."

Does anything else need to be said?
The jury has been out and the verdict is in - YOU WIN!



In your finances - YOU WIN!
On your job - YOU WIN!
In your relationships (married, single, divorced,
family, friends) -YOU WIN!!
In your health - YOU WIN!

God has already worked it out for you. It may not come
the way you think it should come (or when you think it
should), but remember - CALM DOWN, SHUT UP, AND QUIT
TRIPPIN '! He's working it out for "YOUR" good (in His
time).




Do not ask the Lord to guide your

footsteps, if you
are not willing to move your feet!

And that's the Gospel Truth! Be blessed folks!

My Epiphany

Sup folks! So whilst sitting in traffic during my rainy morning commute, I had an epiphany. I told myself that I should remain positive and rooted in the fact that I WILL get a new job and all money issues will work themselves out, even if I don't understand or see how that will happen.

But then I started thinking about why I job hop so much. Now, if you know me, you know that I don't like to stay at any one place for too long. Basically, I put in my year and then I'm ready to bounce. I used to think that I was just inpatient, but now I feel like its deeper than that.

Honestly, I admitted to myself (about a month ago) that I have NO idea what it is I want to do with my life. I guess I've always secretly felt this way, but just never wanted to admit it for fear of ridicule and then constant questioning. But on the reals, I don't think there is anything wrong with not knowing. None of us know when our last days on Earth is going to be, or if we'll ever get married, have kids, be rich, etc. We hope for all of these things and want these things but we never really know. So, I have officially concluded that its totally okay to have no idea what you want to do. Hell, its a big decision I mean now a days, who graduates from college and holds the same career until they retire....okay well probably some people, but not this versatile young woman.

So, what does this have to do with my job hopping? Well to be frank, no job I've ever held was a challenge to me. I need a constant challenge in my life or I'll get bored. *shrugs* I guess its the Gemini in me. Further not only do these jobs not challenge me, but there is no room to grow, no promotion no fast track (or even a slow one) to the top. I'm sorry but last I checked, I spent an agonizing 2 years in graduate school. Blood, sweat, and plenty of tears went into that degree and don't even get me started on undergrad. Bottom line is, I didn't spend 6 years of my life becoming a highly educated individual to sit in a mediocre job for 30 years making someone else rich while I'm barely getting a piece of the pie. HA! You've got to be kidding me!

In conclusion if I were to remain in the job force, a position would have to involve several challenges, room for growth and promotions, a fast-paced work environment, and excellent benefits (i.e., profit sharing, plenty of leave, family-friendly environment, company-paid health care...etc.)

I ran into a friend of a friend this past weekend. She is doing her own event planning business and I'm sure she'll be a complete success! She informed me that she thought I had my own business. My reply to her was "I wish." Well I'm starting to ask myself, why wish?! It's time I sat down listed out the things I like to do and the things I'm good at and figure out how I can create a business out of it. I have a few thoughts but I need to narrow it down.

At this point in my life I am realizing that the whole asking for leave and the 7:30-3:30 just isn't for me. Hopefully I can find and or surround myself with individuals who will help guide me to wherever it is that I need and want to be....FINALLY!